How I Feel Today

I feel as though I'm coming off a funk I've been in lately. The last week or so I've been up and down, though mostly down. I've had this sore throat and runny nose and gunk for over a week now and though it hasn't really been bad enough to interfere too much in my life its certainly been annoying. Plus there's been a lot to think about, a lot of unexpected changes coming my way and I'm not at all sure how to handle them. Plus the Oscars were pretty depressing. But mostly I found myself regressing into uncertainty and doubt and fear and shame, which were once my constant companions and who I have only begun recently to live without. At times fear clenched my heart and drained me of all my power, like some kind of kryptonite. I felt apathetic and pessimistic. I was overwhelmed by the odds. I wanted to give up on everything.

No more. Today I feel full of energy and drive, like I can do anything. Once again I remember the choices I made long ago not to meddle in “what ifs” or “if onlys,” not to regret things that I had no control over, to take what life has given me and enjoy it to the best of my ability. I've remembered my commitment to being honest with myself, proud of myself, to love myself. I've reclaimed the power to stand tall and speak out, to say what is left unsaid, to challenge and expand minds, and to be the voice for the voiceless.

If this sounds like the mantra a superhero would spout before he took off into the light of the setting sun to fight evil, its because I'm feeling like a superhero today. A Man of Steel! A Boy Wonder! Watch me go higher and higher until, at last, I touch stars....